Operation Big Butt – Day 6,7 & 8: Crash And Burn
Lesson for this week? Blogging about losing weight is a whole lot more fun when you’re, well, not crashing and burning.
I have no idea what happened to me this week. Well, that’s not true. I got very caught up in the idea of losing weight, making it funny, cracking jokes on this blog, and paid very little attention to the very real problems that have kept me this way my whole life. Like the stress and emotional problems that plague me, and that derail my attempts at losing weight time and time again.
At some point this week, I hit an emotional brick wall, and how did I tear it down? by making mad, passionate love to the better part of a Papa John’s Spinach Alfredo pizza. After that, it was impossible for me to work out again (not physically, mentally), and I told myself that eventually I’d get back on track. That was pretty much the gist of Day 6 and 7.
Today, on Day 8, still grappling with some tough personal issues, I told myself that I wasn’t ready for this, declared it “Cheat Day”, and lost my f’ing mind. A trip to McDonald’s in the morning that included a 3-pk of chocolate chip cookies, two cupcakes at work (it was cupcake day), and a box full of fried crap for dinner. I think it was chicken, hush-puppies and some jalapeno’s deep fried in cheese. I can always console myself by remembering that a Jalapeno is a vegetable. Always.
And so it goes. Tomorrow, I have my first meeting with my personal trainer, because the pressures of my work week prevented me from seeing her this week. Unless I find the time, and find a way to fit the important stuff in to take care of myself, I can forget about this, and I cannot afford, nor do I want to forget about this. It’s too important. So, having shared these words, I’m going to pull myself off of this computer, slap the shit out of myself (literally if I have to) and get ready to go and meet Steffini Bethea in the morning.
Gotta get my head back in the game.
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